(^_') Hezzie's Thoughts

How is it like for someone who doesn't know what is a dream or how to dream? Do you know if your dream is more realistic when you're awake or asleep? You'll never know you're dreaming if you're not awake... You'll never be awake if you're dreaming...

Ping Lian a 12 year old boy with special needs was featured on the front page of The Star yesterday... He held his debut art exhibition in the The Big Apple... Ping Lian used to be one of my students when I was still working part time teaching children art. He's my student indeed but I think he never knew I was his teacher... He lives in his own world... A world where only he understand... He acted like an artist too... Whenever he's upset or bored at drawings he would throw the crayon or break them...

No I'm not bloggin about how talented he is... He's a gifted boy with creative talents and a bright future no doubt... He got this far to become an artist at his age... having his own exhibition and etc.

Is this really his dream? Or is he living his whole life painting since young but he never understand why? I saw him drew right there in front of me every stroke and line... but is it really his dream to dedicate his whole life to art eventhough he doesn't know he's doing it? Or is he living someone else's dream? Or being what his parents wish he would become?

I for one dare not dream... Dream brings hope to many but disappointments too. I don't know what I want to do tomorrow... I don't know where i'll end up or who i'll become... I don't really care because if i'm there living a dream I never dreamt of what is the difference between a reality and a dream?

Heya all beautiful people... Where have I been? Well, been busy with work most of the time and Dota... Yes DOTA! I've never mention in my previous post that I'm crazy or should I say addicted to this RPG mode warcraft called DOTA (Defense of the Ancients). Spending most of my weekend in front of the pc in a cyber cafe is what I do for the past 5 months?

Besides that I've been having diarrhea  for the past few weeks... Oddly after eating at "Hooked" at the Curve on New Years Eve I just can't stop purging... Fish was my deadly enemy... But ever since that day it just went on and on until...

Last week... I've began to suffered the pain till now... The pain of the attack of the cavemen... ok no more jokes... One of my lower wisdom tooth is growing... So much pain... I've been going through this for about 5 days now... and the pain still goes on... Took lots of pain killer hoping that it would subside... End up being over dosed and scared the hell out of my family...

I guess I'll be feeling better soon... Trying to conquer the caveman... eventually I think the pain will go away once the tooth is out... Then I'm the winner... I've been adviced to go to the dentist by many people but my stubborness towards the matter really do piss people off... Firstly I'm really afraid of the dentist's evil face and also the punishment chair... I still remember the previous time going there to extract my wisdom tooth got me weeping out of the room... what a shame...

Today is my first time taking the LRT to work even since I started working here... I'm quite surprised to see how our citizen acted. Normally I would imagine our LRT station crowded with people pushing around, people become victims of pick pocket... but no... I was surprised to see people lining up in straight line towards the entrance of each door to the train... This happened before the train stop at the station... Few straight lines with discipline people... No one jump que... no one pushing... everybody was nice... Am I dreaming?!

Perhaps I've missed a lot of things around me... Really missed those days I used to take LRT to tuitions, church and shopping... Now I'm too busy... Is that an excuse? Missed many precious friends... Hardly even keep in touch I feel really bad... This goes to you Nita, Pey-li, Thomas, Wei Tieng, Jikey, Wan Yin, Jamie, Balloon, Aris, Hadrian, Justin, Darren, Wilson, Lawrence and many more... What a shame :( Sorry guys... Miss you all a lot!!!