(^_') Hezzie's Thoughts

Dream thing... 

Current Obsession:

Decole:
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Gund:
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The past few months has been a spending galore for me... Firstly I got this jewel case:

Then this Spanish Baby:

Now the Toki Doki Baby:

It's marvelous... check out Toki Doki work at: http://www.tokidoki.it/" title="http://www.tokidoki.it/" target="_blank"http://www.tokidoki.it/ or more LeSportsac at http://www.lesportsac.com" title="http://www.lesportsac.com" target="_blank"http://www.lesportsac.com

It's something like obsession and also reward for myself... eventhough I have to be broke the whole month... But i'm happy :)



 

Last week I went to BTS - Debenhams... Saw some discounts for the teddies at Bear Factory... They used to have this machine where you choose the skin of the soft toy you like, then they will will use the machine to fill it up with fluff... After that they sell clothes that goes with it... You can choose all kinds of clothes from police, sailor, army and more. So I looked around... There was a bunch of them dropping out from a sack on the floor... some on the rack and some in the basket... I picked up one of them from the basket... and the first look... I felt "attached"... You know how things are sometimes some people or somethings they give you the feeling of being "attached" or "connected"...

It has a very nice and friendly face... compared to the rest of the same design... they just look different somehow... the feeling is not there... So I carry it on my shoulder, then went around looking for the perfect clothes to go with it... I found one with a red scarf and a denim jump suit... It looks reallly nice... I was very happy and walked towards to sales person hoping to get it stuffed...

Apparently their machine is no longer functioning. I was quite disappointed... There were some premade ones on the shelf so I asked the lady if I could take the fluff from there to fill mine... but she say no... She asked me to take those premade ones... coz they are the same... It might look the same to her... but not to me... Their faces looks difference besides the rest doesn't give me that "attached" feeling... it's not connecting! So I went to Customer Service hoping that someone can do something about it... but ended up they were just too lazy to help me put the fluff into the skin I wanted... Perhaps to them it's just a teddy no big deal... just get the premade one they are the same! To me it's different... Somethings might look the same to other people... but perhaps they dont understand the feeling about the freedom to choose... the freedom of passion towards something...

Example... you've always wanted to build your own dream house... you want to fill it up with the furniture you choose... each one unique on its own because it's your time and effort to choose it... Decorate it with patience and passion... Compared to a fully furnished house... same house but already furnished... You have no freedom to choose anything... you can't even choose what you like... What is there in life when you can choose or can't even do the things you like? Same house... but the feeling is not there... Home is a shelter... but what can a shelter do when it's only a shelter with no warmth inside? Perhaps people just don't get it...
 

I always have the problem of learning to say "No" especially to situation where people ask me for help, or a certain request I couldn't comply but still will blindly do it or try... Recently I felt happier when I started to learn to say "No"... Every Tues and Thurs I'll have to travel to KLCC from office to cliet site.

I fear and panic everytime I use the under passage from the LRT station to the mall... Bunch of sales people will be standing there either doing direct sales, asking for donation or surveys. I hate it because I'm always the chosen one... The problem with me for not knowing how to say "No" always ended up spending 10-15mins of my time talking and giving out my info to those sales people there. Finally I said my first "No" to a lady who stopped me. I was in a hurry to rush to client's site so I said to her I have to deliver an important document. She was upset and almost wanted to scold me for not listening to what she has got to say.

She didn't understand that I go through it every Tues and Thurs for the past 3 months! Sometimes same people from the same company target me over and over again! Do I look dumb that I would fall into their little traps to buy their stuff, join their membership and etc? After saying my first no, for the past 2 weeks of my trip to KLCC I learned to say "No" again and again...

I get really scared to do it in the begining... afraid to upset poor sales person... they are quite sad to begin with... standing at the station stopping every person if possible... Some would just ignore them... some might even scold them... I feel bad... I feel bad for saying "No" but I really dont want to buy anything and not interested... I want to be nice and all... but maybe that makes people think I'm an easy target... take advantage of me...

Bf always say I gotta learn to be street smart... not everyone in this world is nice... or at least I think they are... Master the skill of saying "No" it helps sometimes...

The fever began last week on a fateful Friday night. Watched the glorious opening with traditional music and colorful costumes of the Germans as if I've entered the stadium through the projector TV at Modestos. It was a great match, the Germans played extremely well and Costa Ricans deserves the credits too. Matched ended with a 4-2 and of course the German won in style.

Saw in the papers yesterday that a couple got married on the day itself as their story has got something to do with football. I have a little love story myself which started because of football but I'm not sharing it now LOL...

I remember back when I was younger I was very enthusiatic about football. I would watch almost all the matches on EPL and Seria A regardless of the time and etc. I used to have posters on the entire wall of my bedroom with football stars and images of boots on it. I still have them on my door now LOL... Then it's a must to buy "Match" the magazine after school twice a month at an indian stall near Atria. I have no idea why I was so crazy then but all I know is I love the game and I want to play in it. Spent some of my PE time running and chasing the ball with some good malay guy friends of mine... It was fun and memorable.

Back in college we were asked to write an article/essay about a metaphor of something and how it inspire your life. I have chosen Bill Shankly's famous quote "Football is not about life and death, it is more important than that". I wrote an article about how football influence the lives of many and the inspiration behind it. During the presentation I played the song by "Queen" - We are the Champions the lecturer didn't seems too impress because she didn't understand the beauty of the game. I remember shedding tears when the song was played on a Champions League final. The atmosphere was very touching and it struck my emotional state of mind.

The funniest moment I have experienced was when I worked part time at F.O.S. - 1U. The matches are at hours when I have to work. So I sneaked to Jusco Electrical Department stood there and watched the match with the excuse of going to toilet most of the time. Colleague saw me doing it and they did the same. Finally the supervisor found out about it and limited the times we can go for toilet breaks LOL...

I might not know every single thing about football even admit that I can't even differentiate a winger from a midfielder or who plays for what comes from where and etc. but I love the game! It's an inspiration that reflects lives which we do not notice sometimes. Why we like watching 20 men chasing a ball? 2 standing on guard? One without the passion for the game will never understand that... How about trying to see the Brazilian play as an art of movement an art of people and the things we can do...

Hope that everyone will enjoy this great moment in 2006... It's a beautiful game...