(^_') Hezzie's Thoughts

After exchanging my PSP with my bf with his Nintendo DS Lite for the past few months, here are some recommended games... Summary: Nintendo Rocks! *Kinda regret I bought the PSP...* Excites me to think about what a small little box and stylus can do...

1) WarioWare Touched
2) WarioWare Twisted

Will review them one by one soon... Gotta continue with Okami now...

I've lost touch with my own life the past few months... I've lost touch updating this blog as well... What have I been doing for the past few months? Going to work as usual, returning as using, gaming, spending most of my time at Starbucks while the gang I hang out with busy with MHF (Monster Hunter Freedom). Successfully stopped Dota for 1 month, the usual Friday at Cyber Cafe is no longer going on felt good at least to know I have other life to live on other than playing Dota. Lately what I spend most of my time doing online is researching on the behaviours and thoughts about "Fans and Idols". I read a lot of blogs, forum, fansite, artiste site to find out what is the reason resulting one to idolize another person percepting as a perfect form or idealism.

Why am I doing this? After watching one Korean Drama - Stairway to Heaven. I've watched a lot of foreign films but never venture into a Korean Drama until I finished watching this one. As many would assume Korean Drama are for housewives and aunty alike. After much research, I realized that this assumption is only happening in Malaysia. I don't remember when but I started to collect/watch drama and movies from this one actor - Kwon Sang Woo. It all started from this actor I ventured into watching some of his movies which I highly recommended to others:

1) Stairway to Heaven (drama)
2) Sad Sonata (drama)
3) Running Wild (movie)
4) My Tutor Friend (movie)
5) Almost Love (movie)
6) Love, So Divine (movie)

After watching all of the above which portrays a different characteristic I then realized that he is a good actor. From the research of his movies, I then found out about his fan base and many other interesting information. It came to a point I read this blog about one fan who is dead crazy about him living each day dreaming to be by his side until she drove dangerously ended up in accident. There was this other news about a 4 year old girl dressing up as a bride holding a poster to ask him to marry her... It's madness... Then I started and wanting to know why...

Since I was a teenager I was never crazy about any idols when the rest of the girls in school are crazy about a group or someone. But, I get this feeling about wanting to know more about this person and his fans... so my research continue... Why do we seek perfection in a world where things can never be perfect? Why do we believe in an image an idol portrays to make believe... All these answers I seek to fulfill the feeling I have each time I read about a crazy fan doing something to seek their idol's attention or continue dreaming hoping that it will come true... Maybe no one understand what is on my mind... I'm researching to find out what's on my mind and that hidden part of me...